UNSETTLED.My mind,that is.
Yes that's it.But not in the 'mentally disturbed',or 'troubled' as the "ever-defining" system puts it .
Delinquent,perhaps is what comes to mind. I'm i your well put together,model citizen?You know your friendly,average neighbor or neighbor's kid given my years?Probably not what would be written in the papers if i ever ran for office.
Now let's look at that description,shall we?
'Well put together' show me a kid my age who is,anyway you'll come to realize that's a paradox,at least in reference to me.
.'Model citizen' well, i'm barely a year being legal but so far,so good.'Friendly' well man(the raging feminist in me is slowly accepting this term in reference to both sexes,though she questions the difficulty of typing he and she and putting a forward slash in between).
I can be described as having a never-ending urge more like an itch,you know the kind described in Murphy's unwritten laws. A feisty unreachable itch to deviate from the subject matter.
How about we continue to nitpick those descriptive words?Yes?yes.As i was saying 'Friendly' well, man is generally described to be a social creature. So i guess i can add that to my C.V.
'Average'AVERAGE,AVERAGE. The term itself rattles me.No thank you. I would most definitely not describe myself as average.At 19 years I've lived in 3 different countries.Pretty impressive,huh? or not.I guess that depends on the number of stamps on your passport.And how many languages do i speak.Well that's the disclaimer.Three but depending on who's asking i can make out a basic German convo. Three languages.I'm being a bit too modest,aren't i? Not really.Yet another disclaimer.Two of which were imposed during my years in learning institutions.I'm still in school though,in case you're wondering.Mainly under the 8-4-4 system of education so 'sacred' or is it 'hallowed' that the human language is too deficient in vocabulary to describe it. I'm not such a fan. Einstein perfectly sums up the whole idea behind that particular system of education "Judging the ability of a fish to climb up a tree". Sums it up quite nicely actually.
Brief but witty words make me happy to be alive.They explain so much in so little.They're magical and seem to know me at times even more than i know myself. I suppose i collect them, just as art-collectors take pride in storing great works(or blobs of paint seen by the trained eye to be works of pure genius and the rest of us 'common folk' as just that, blobs of paint). I loved that guy.Einstein.Believe me,theory of relativity pure genius,but it's something greater than that 'defying common perception' i guess,his non-conventional mindset that led him to achieving greatness. He is described to not having being agreeable to authority and even wrote that "the spirit of learning and creativity were lost in rote learning". At least in his early years.Not your classic geek huh?
Exactly,I believe people are much more than we perceive them to be.No one is technically your classic 'anything'.Exactly why labels only befit soup cans. That limitless capacity depicted in 'Lucy' the movie. 'Lucy' played ever so graciously and skillfully by Scarlett Johansson attempts to answer "What if humans were able to utilize the unknown and untapped potential within" or as in religion "Individuals were to become all they were created to be".Maslow popularised the term "self-actualization" something very few achieve. It gives a whole new meaning there's more to 'it' than meets the eye. The quote on the left-hand side of the page neatly sums up my unsettled mind and how it is filled with beautiful and not destructive chaos.A raging fire of endless,thoughts,questions in which my mind is constantly consumed and my heart dances in flames of excitement. Viewing the world as one who is within,yet without(One of the greatest movie quotes from the 2012 box office sensation"The Great Gatsby").
Unsettled.Not satisfied with the ordinary.With the average.With conformity nor with conventional.Different ah! yes that i am.That unsettled mind that challenged the greats not to settle for a life that is less than that which they were destined for.
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